A documentation of the aggressive arts. Written by Sawyer Paul.

Miles and Miles of No-Man’s Land

Libba Bray:

Other times, it’s as if a hole is opening inside you, wider and wider, pressing against your lungs, pushing your internal organs into unnatural places, and you cannot draw a true breath. You are breaking inside, slowly, and everything that keeps you tethered to your life, all of your normal responses, is being sucked through the hole like an airlock emptying into space. These are the times Holly Golightly called the Mean Reds.

I’m beginning to know more and more people dealing with depression. It sounds strange to say, but I honestly don’t know if I do or not. The way Bray writes, I feel like I do at times, but only at times, and I have an array of weaponry to combat it, and a stack of good content to help me through if I need to defend until morning comes. I feel it, but I also feel in control of beating it. I know other people don’t feel as lucky. I thought I’d share this piece, which I found on Tumblr looking through research, as it may comfort some of the increasing amounts of people I know in this situation. 



Ukraine: The Haze of Propaganda

Timothy Snyder:

Whatever course the Russian intervention may take, it is not an attempt to stop a fascist coup, since nothing of the kind has taken place. What has taken place is a popular revolution, with all of the messiness, confusion, and opposition that entails. The young leaders of the Maidan, some of them radical leftists, have risked their lives to oppose a regime that represented, at an extreme, the inequalities that we criticize at home. They have an experience of revolution that we do not. Part of that experience, unfortunately, is that Westerners are provincial, gullible, and reactionary.

Like many of you I’ve been rapt by stories this month from the Ukraine. In case you’ve only caught bits and pieces, Snyder does an excellent job not only summing up the events, but spotlighting how tragic and fascinating some of the events have been. 



Newsletter #1

Earlier today, I posted my first Newsletter of 2014. If Lattice were still going, the content inside this newsletter would have made up the February issue. 

If you subscribed, you got the entire Heart is Raw Season 1 in the three popular digital reading formats for free. I put this collection together in the last month, and I just received the print proof yesterday. The book looks great, and it’ll be on sale on the site next week. This is only available for people who subscribed, and the people those people decide to share it with. If you missed out, you can get the bundle for only $4.99.

Subscribers also got two bonus articles, entire Heart is Raw articles exclusive to the Newsletter. One was about wrestling, and one was about True Detective. Again, those will be exclusive to the first newsletter for now. I’m sure they will pop up somewhere soon. The newsletter is increasingly going to be the place where people get first access to my work, so subscribe! You never know what kind of crazy shit I’m going to put in there from here on.  


The Heart is Raw Season 1 Cover Art

Near the end of the month, I’ll be releasing a collection of articles I wrote last year called The Heart is Raw. It’s going to be a short and small book, but I wanted it to have a unified look throughout. The general idea behind the articles is to open up your own guts and pour them out onto pop culture, and explore the space that exists there, so I wanted the art style to be coarse and broken. Throughout the book, there will be pages dedicated to this look, with quotes I’ve gathered from a Tumblr I seldom update called Maltese Suplex. Here’s the cover. I’d love to know your thoughts. 


Wacom Intuous S

I know there are better Wacom pads you can buy. You can get bigger ones with screens and higher points of pressure sensitivity and I’m sure one day I’ll get to the point where I feel like it’ll really help my work to have. But for now, my favourite new tool is the Wacom Intuous S.

I don’t know enough about this technology to even compare them, or say why it’s special. Basically, the pen feels perfect, and it moves along the surface of the tablet with a balance of friction and smoothness that’s leagues better than my old tablet. I guess this is a poor review, but I really just wanted to gush a little. 


The Heart is Raw Season 1 is now available as a digital bundle

Earlier this month I announced a collection of my wrestling writing from last year on this blog. The Heart is Raw Season 1 is now available as a digital bundle for $4.99. The file contains a PDF, an ePub, and a Mobi file so you can read it DRM-free on any modern device (for those new to digital book files, PDFs are generally best for desktops/laptops, ePubs are best for Apple, Android and Kobo devices, and Mobi files are best for the Kindle). The book contains all 18 Heart is Raw articles from 2013, including both Wrestlemania and Summerslam essays, which nicely bookend the whole package. 

Yes, of course, you can read each and every Heart is Raw article on my site, for free, as they arrive. I won’t be doing anything skeevy like taking the articles down or covering them with ads so that you’re forced to buy the book. Buying the book is 100% about supporting me, and showing that you like what I do enough that your $5 can become my $5.

For those holding out for a physical copy, that’s coming really soon. Maybe in the next two weeks. I’m ordering a test copy for myself first, and as soon as I can make sure it looks good, I’ll put it on sale. If you want to buy it through Paypal, you can actually donate $5 to me on my Works page and leave a note, and I’ll send along the bundle. 

You can go to my Works page to buy The Heart is Raw Season 1, or below in this very blog post. Thanks everyone. I feel like The Heart is Raw has been my strongest work, and I want to thank everyone who’s helped me through it.   

The Heart is Raw Season 1 Digital Bundle The Heart is Raw Season 1 Digital Bundle 4.99 Add To Cart


they say professional wrestling is just shakespeare with steel chairs but seriously why haven’t they adapted much do about nothing, with two wrestlers having their hearts all a-flutter because the rumor going around the locker room is that one of them just wants a match with the other at wrestlemania because they’re absolutely besotted